Went to UU church with low blood sugar, lost my fucking bike lock!; clarifying to myself what the Anaya religion is and is not; a brief mention of homosexuality and pedophilia

I JUST fixed the bike and got it back yesterday. I paid this money to have it fixed and I am not going to let it get stolen again. Well, on the way to the UU church, the bike lock somehow magically fell out of my pocket and vanished into another universe never to be seen again. Unlike my coat, it’s not hanging on the coat rack at Aunt Jean’s house ready for me to pick it up anytime I want to (that’s where the missing coat went). I didn’t even feel it, see it, or hear it falling out of my pocket. I retraced my steps on the way back, and it was completely gone. I am furious! For now, I brought my bike up inside the apartment. I will have to hide it behind the building at work so it won’t get stolen. Then I have to pay for a new bike lock.

Okay. I did make it to the UU church.

As I knew to expect, the information was hitting the wrong socionic functions, although I felt that it was more intelligent and more meaningful than the stuff I heard at the Christ Community Church. I’m guessing this is probably Beta NF information, +Fe -Ni. I’m not absolutely sure of that.

However, what I gain by going to churches is, I am slowly assembling an idea of what Anaya is and what it is not, by seeing what other religions and churches do.

They did not have loud blaring music, so my ears aren’t ringing. We sang hymns from a book, and that’s okay, although my hearing isn’t as good as it used to be, and so it’s hard for me to hear my own voice and know if I’m in key. It was not a whole bunch of talk about Jesus and it wasn’t all taken out of the bible, which is good. However, it was about general ‘spirituology.’ Or spirituality. Or whatever. It was vague stuff about ‘the journey’ and ‘the transitions’ and ‘rites of passage’ because I just happened to go there on a day when they were doing a rite of passage for young children and older teenagers becoming young adults.

I know that this is probably Beta NF stuff because it does, in fact, seem sort of admirable and intelligent, yet simultaneously totally useless to me at the same time. It wasn’t just outright stupid or outright meaningless. But it was still useless.

I might go again, however I’d also be curious to try the silent Quaker meeting that the taxi driver mentioned to me before. That’s basically silent group meditation with a few brief minutes where somebody might talk if they feel the need to.

Part of this is because I need to explain how Anaya even qualifies as a ‘religion.’ How can I call myself a religion whenever I’m not even talking about ‘spirituology?’

One thing I’m pretty sure Anaya does is, we do have group meals, and in fact, going to church would probably be primarily for the purpose of going and eating a group meal together. The act of worship is eating food. Anaya is very centered on food, and food-related rules and guidelines are in Anaya, right after the guidelines about how to grow your hair long.

This lack of a meal was painfully obvious to me. Having been rejected recently by a sociopathic pedophile, I decided to go along with the cruel and abusive voices in my head that have been making fun of me for being too fat, even though in the big scheme of things I’m still nowhere near fat by any reasonable definition. So I decided to try drinking skim milk instead of whole milk, for starters, and ideally I would quit dairy products altogether. And I have simply been eating less in general for the last couple days. So all I had this morning was a cup of instant espresso with skim milk and sugar and cinnamon.

Well, after sitting in church for a while my blood sugar was so low I was ready to rip someone’s abdomen open and eat their liver with my bare fangs, if I had any fangs, except for the fact that my fangs are crumbling and breaking off. So I did not do that, due to the lack of effective fangs. I just sat there quietly listening, and could not bear to stay a second longer for the socializing afterwards, which I really ought to have stayed for, but I was in so much pain from this low blood sugar that I could not wait another minute, and I was absolutely furious about losing my bike lock and wanted to retrace my steps as soon as possible.

So I went to Weis Market, and now I am doing what might be called a ‘rebound’ in the world of dieting. Starve yourself for a brief time, then binge on a bunch of stuff which is really horrible and which totally undermines everything you were trying to do – in this case, it’s a two liter of Coke.

This is not at all the way I would diet if I were able to plan my own nutrition and make my own food. It is an extremely badly implemented, badly planned diet.

I called Anaya a ‘practical religion.’ Anaya will be involved in every moment of your life. Anaya feeds you and dictates your hairstyle. Anaya guarantees that you have an income, and Anaya supports you as you raise your children, and it will be a large number of children. This UU church was plagued by the sin of depopulation – there were very few children there, and most of the people were middle aged and older. Young people need something, and the churches don’t provide them with what they need. They don’t need these modern ‘rock band’ churches either, though – that’s not helping them.

If your church doesn’t make strict rules that will protect your children from getting autism, what’s the point of being in a church? The church must strictly forbid its members from vaccinating their children. If a church doesn’t make rules that will protect your children from being born with irreversible deformities, what’s the point of being in a church? Anaya requires that parents follow certain rules, avoiding drugs and chemicals, and eating proper nutrition, so as to prevent deformities in their children. Deformed people will suffer and fail for an entire lifetime, and no matter how hard they try, they can never achieve as much, or be as happy, or as healthy, or as ‘moral,’ as the people who are perfectly healthy, fully grown, and perfectly formed. Physical health leads to better morality in the entire society, as Weston Price observed.

If your church doesn’t know about socionics, then how is it going to deliver messages that everyone is able to hear? There will always be certain types of people who just cannot gain anything at all from a particular message if it’s said by a particular personality type. That is the reason why Anaya begins, first of all, with only the ‘8th house,’ the ISTP and ENFP, my own type and dual, so that its messages are able to be heard by those types, and then gradually, if Anaya ever grows, it will have some separate divisions for other socionic houses, perhaps beginning with the 7th, INFJ and ESTJ, but they will be governed separately and will have different needs and issues and will want to live in a different kind of world.

Also, in a world where electronic mind control attacks are everywhere and unavoidable, how can any religion fail to talk about the fact that we no longer possess free will? How can any religion fail to provide shielded rooms for its people? How can any religion fail to teach us about how the attacks are being done, how to protect ourselves, and how to take action to fight back against this world of slavery? That is *very* relevant to *all* religions, because religions have something to do with free will and our personal choices. Anaya *explicitly* and overtly teaches about electronic mind control – it is one of the most important teachings – and we practice meditation, and observe our sensations and talk about the voices we hear, the attacks we experience, how to distinguish the true self from the mind control, and talk about what we would be able to do if we weren’t being attacked. Anaya also provides shielded rooms – that is absolutely essential.

I don’t know the details of how this would be done, but Anaya doesn’t merely demand that its members eat healthy food – it *ensures* that they do. Anaya must physically provide its people with food.

I still don’t feel back to normal after that low blood sugar. I’m drinking Coke and I still feel sort of sick and hungry and irritated.

I saw Steve yesterday and gave him a hug. Usually, Steve’s drug residues affect me strongly – he uses some kind of psychiatric meds and also tobacco, and both of those residues go through my skin and make me very irritable, so that could be partly why I feel this way right now.

Another thing about churches, all churches: There has to be something which demands, forces, and requires members to interact with other people directly, not by mere ‘socializing’ in a group where random people awkwardly struggle to have a conversation with other random people, but something much deeper and more intense. It would be more like psychotherapy, with detailed questioning, interrogation, and extreme challenges. This must be a required part of church. Psychotherapy for free – that should be the goal of this church. Psychotherapy is extremely expensive, but Anaya provides. Something you’d get for hundreds of dollars an hour can be found freely anytime you want it.

‘Anaya provides’ must be a literal thing – not at all like the other churches where God allegedly provides us with something, but in reality fails to do anything for us at all. Thankfully, I didn’t get that kind of crap from the UU church. They don’t go spouting a bunch of false promises, and several of the people who got up and talked were young people who considered themselves mostly atheists (young people got up and gave speeches because today was the celebration of the rite of passage for young people). That’s why I liked the UU in the first place, because it tolerates atheism. Anaya must provide something physical and material at its expense, to guarantee that the physical lives of its people are very good.

Also, I appreciate it when churches are not hatefully anti-gay, and the UU is explicitly welcoming for gays, lesbians, etc. HOWEVER… One thing that makes Anaya special is that it simultaneously welcomes people who are gay and lesbian, WHILE ALSO believing that the increasing numbers of gays and lesbians are a problem similar to autism – some kind of physical brain deformity that results from exposure to drugs and chemicals, such as birth control pills that were used shortly before their mother became pregnant.

We do not assume that homosexuality is a mere accident that just happens and has to be accepted and tolerated because the people who experience it can’t help themselves. Instead, we assume that yes, they can’t help themselves and they do need to be loved, accepted, and tolerated, but at the same time, we take action to prevent the birth of gays and lesbians by means of making rules that forbid parents to use drugs and chemicals that cause this deformity. I do view it as an unnatural thing that has a cause, rather than a mere random thing which occurs normally in the population. However, there might be a very small amount of it that does appear randomly, with unknown causes, which is yet another reason why we must simply welcome them and accept them.

I don’t have time for this, but I’m getting requests from ‘them’ to write about ‘the normalization of pedophilia.’ Since Matthew has been accused of being a pedophile, this is relevant to him. The voices and the electronic weapons constantly accused me, and all of their victims (according to what I read online from all the fellow sufferers of electronic weapon attacks) of being pedophiles – it seems to be the universal accusation that all of us are hearing, along with
accusations of being homosexual. I think electronic weapons and mind control are primarily used by pedophiles and homosexuals due to the fact that they can’t find what they want in mainstream society, so they can only get it by stealing it, looking through the walls of the house to spy on the children, and reading the minds of people to find out if they have homosexual fantasies. That would explain why nearly all victims of electronic weapon attacks describe the voices accusing them of pedophilia and homosexuality, and I experienced that very same thing myself.

I did have *some* degree of agreement with the voices and mind control accusing me of pedophilia, but I have to explain what part of the argument that I agree with. I had written in my stories, which were on the hard drive of a previous computer, being read by the computer hackers, that skinny guys were the most attractive. I fetishize extremely skinny guys and I like them much more than muscular large guys. This is associated with liking teenage guys too. The mind controllers found out about this and classified it along with pedophilia as a fetish, an unusual preference for extremely skinny guys instead of fully grown huge muscular men. I am not a pedophile in the sense of being sexually aroused by children younger than 10 or whatever age. Instead I am a person who feels most attracted to, and falls in love with, men who are skinny to the extreme, including people who are younger than 20 years old.

I don’t really feel like talking about this right now – I am actually starting to calm down somewhat now that I have been drinking a whole lot of sugar.

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