Archive for February, 2009

martin again… the parallel universe theory

February 22, 2009

i sometimes wonder about the parallel universe theory. that he is living in a parallel universe, a universe of disinformation. the internet servers he reads have been distorted, and he can’t reach the other internet servers. like me, finding ‘this blog has been deleted.’ when it hasn’t. and the emails don’t get sent, and they don’t get received. and i can’t see the photos on his page. and he ripped up my note before finishing it, and was prevented from understanding. and he would be forced to avoid things he needed to know. and unable to find them on the internet. and he would have the wrong idea, that people were rejecting him, when actually, they tried desperately to reach him and tell him they cared. that he thought he was sexually rejected, when actually, people found him attractive and loved him. that he thought people were his enemies, when actually they were fellow sufferers and trying to reach him. and that he was being forcibly prevented from understanding. that he was in this parallel universe of disinformation.

it is a huge and ominous conspiracy theory. but his emotions sometimes make me think he’s TOTALLY CLUELESS. i don’t know. clueless, and i don’t mean that i have contempt about that, but i mean, clueless about me, clueless because he can’t understand and can’t communicate anything to me, and we can’t talk to each other. he had mentioned an email that was from a really, really long time ago, as if it were the last thing he read, and he hasn’t seen any new information since then. clueless because he is being forced not to know anything.

i have to give a disclaimer, which is that i did the laundry, and put on some clothes that i hadn’t worn in a while, and i think they had something on them like st. john’s wort, because i was definitely in a strange mood the last couple days, and talking to people and interacting differently than usual. it seemed like a drug phenomenon from the contaminated house/clothing problem.

deep sigh. all right, i guess i will put it on retmeishka. i wanted to put it on the normal blog, because there are things i want to tell him, things i want him to know, and he hasn’t been told about retmeishka unless he’s hacked or gotten the hackers to tell him. i said i would give him a note, and if that’s true, then i don’t NEED to tell him this in the blog ahead of time, because it will all be covered, if we can open up a communication.

i really, really do sometimes think he is in the parallel universe of disinformation. that upsets me a lot.

they made a loud clicking noise the last time when i went to his blog and left the comment and sent an email. the loud click was trying to tell me something important. it tells me that psychotronics are INVOLVED in this – whether he himself is one of them, or else he is surrounded by them and affected by them.

his strange ‘outbursts’ of saying unexpected things and the one time when he ‘zoned out’ make me think he is a victim, which is the parallel universe theory.

i would like the drugs to wear off and i would be back to a more calm state of mind before talking to him. there is no need for a sense of urgency, franticness, or desperation. that feeling needs to go away, that intense anxiety, because there is no urgency. i said (to myself, that is) that i would prepare a note asking him to communicate with me in a calm, formal environment, with limits and restrictions, possibly with both of us having a friend come along. he could have a friend with him to make sure that i didn’t ‘say something weird.’ i really don’t want to say anything ‘weird.’ when i am ready to write the note, i will tell his friend about it ahead of time, and i would mention that it was a BRIEF note.

i hate not having control over when i use drugs and when i don’t, because of their being on the clothing and around the house. the house needs to be cleaned and decontaminated. i don’t even know which drug it is, if it is st. john’s wort, or what. i don’t want to use drugs when i don’t choose to use them – i want to use them only by choice, when i want to. (they go through the skin… long story. i blogged about it a while ago.)

i have made OTHER FRIENDS over these past few years. i have made casual friends. i can easily see us being casual friends, and that would be okay.

‘they’ are the ones who made a big deal out of it, not me. i trust myself, but apparently, they don’t trust me. to me it seems obvious that… i hate sentence stems. i hate when they stick the beginning of a sentence in your head, hoping you’ll finish the sentence. anyway, i trust myself. i know that i am not going to do anything impulsive or harmful to him. the barriers and restrictions are THE CAUSE of the awkwardness and unnaturalness. they are THE REASON why i have distorted behavior and distorted emotions now. just like zimbabwe being under siege – just the other day, i thought of ‘economic sanctions,’ and noticed: that is a politically correct euphemism for ‘under siege.’ zimbabwe is under siege. they blame zimbabwe for its dictator’s behavior, they make fun of its currency hyperinflating, but it is UNDER SIEGE. you can’t expect it to behave in a healthy, natural way while it is UNDER SIEGE. i am in the same situation. there are unnatural restrictions and physical/mental attacks on me which have prevented me from communicating with him – especially the lost emails. this distorts everything and it CAUSES strange behavior.

all it takes is for people to openly, honestly confront each other face to face, and SO MANY THINGS suddenly become natural and simple and easy instead of all distorted. they just have to look at each other and see their real emotions on each other, instead of the imaginary assumptions and distorted delusions they’ve had all this time. all they have to see are the real emotions on each other, and it is clear and natural and obvious what everything is all about. and nothing is wrong, or evil, or dangerous. it is two normal human beings interacting. these artificial barriers are THE REASON for my distorted, exaggerated feelings and behavior.

No Shampoo experiment

February 18, 2009

This is a somewhat incoherent blog, as I’m not really able to concentrate today. I’m having a problem with mysterious fumes in the house and I’m trying to fix it, but right now, it’s still lingering. I’ve been so sick for the past few weeks that I can’t even write blogs.

Well, I just read about using vinegar on your hair, and now I’ve decided NOT to try it. I did try it a long time ago when I had much shorter hair. I didn’t dilute it, and it burned and irritated my face, so I had a bright red face for a couple days. (That was white vinegar, undiluted. They recommend using apple cider vinegar, diluted.) I am still going to use vinegar for housecleaning, since I’m not keeping any chemicals in the house anymore. (The definition of ‘chemical’ is anything dangerous and reactive, in a bottle, that’s going to spill and fill the house with mysterious fumes for weeks.)

Anyway, the results of the experiment so far:

I’ve only rinsed my hair with hot water, and combed it out in the shower. Nothing else. Not even vinegar, baking soda, or the other things people are trying. (I didn’t like the idea of baking soda, after reading somebody who said it was similar to getting a perm, and that it actually changed the structure of the hair. Since I’m in a hurry, I didn’t research that any further to find out whether it was true. It might be wrong.)

After several weeks of using nothing at all except water: My hair has always been greasy, and I used to shampoo it daily. It is now classic length (hip length). The grease is building up on the hair, and has a sticky texture like chewing gum. My hair is now very hard to comb, especially being as long as it is. Lint is sticking to the grease on the hair. When I comb it, the lint sticks in the comb, and I can see the color of the sweater I was wearing that day.

I have a feeling that the goal of this experiment is to convince me to just let my long hair form natural dreadlocks. The un-combability of it suggests that to me. If I didn’t comb it, it would start matting, but it wouldn’t look the same as the dreadlocks of the afro-coily hair texture. The grease is so gummy and sticky, not oily, that it sticks the hair together and tangles it. I’m sure it would form dreadlocks, and I haven’t yet firmly committed myself to accepting dreadlocks just yet.

However, dreadlocks wouldn’t be the end of the world. I think that, with my straight hair, if I decided I didn’t want the dreadlocks anymore, I could painstakingly comb them out. It would create a lot of loose, disconnected hairs that would detach whenever I combed out the dreadlocks. I have a feeling that the next step of my experiment will be to stop combing it, accept the tangling and matting, maybe just slightly detangle it with my fingers, and see what happens when gummy grease and tangles form dreadlocks in thin, straight hair.

My only concern about natural dreadlocks is that they will be irregular. I’ve seen some pictures of people with irregular dreadlocks. They can have some places with large mats, and other places with small strings. They aren’t the perfectionistic dreadlocks that you see on people who are deliberately and carefully making dreadlocks on purpose.

I will create a way of pinning up my hair in a bun so that I can wear it in a ‘tidy’ style at work. It might end up being a rolled-up ponytail or something – I’m not sure yet – it will have to be something that is short and wrapped up and neat looking, which won’t tangle in any moving parts of machinery, like the conveyor belt of the pizza oven. (Avoiding the pizza oven’s conveyor belt has been one of my main concerns of the long braid.)

One of my coworkers was looking at a caucasian male customer who had waist-length blond dreadlocks. She looked revolted, horrified, and disapproving. “He’ll have to CUT those out,” she muttered quietly to me. That assumes that he merely ‘wasn’t aware’ that he would ‘need’ to cut the hair to remove the dreadlocks, and it assumes that he WANTS to remove the dreadlocks, or that there is some reason why he should.

I’m not convinced that dreadlocks have to be cut out. A long time ago, my family had a Samoyed dog. Some parts of her long white fur tangled into mats. I used to get a fine toothed comb, and gently pluck apart the mats. If she could tolerate sitting patiently long enough while having her hair tugged and fooled with, then I was able to get them out. She had straight hair, not coily hair, so her texture would be similar to my own. It just takes patience. I could do that if I decided I didn’t want my dreadlocks anymore. I would do a little bit at a time, and then braid the untangled portions so that they would stay untangled. Then I’d work on it a little at a time. In other words I don’t have to be ‘afraid’ that the dreadlocks won’t comb out or that they’ll be permanent and irreversible. There would be a few tangles that would be too complicated to remove. I do occasionally have ‘complex’ tangles that I rip or cut out, but it’s rare, and it’s usually due to a lack of patience rather than the knot itself being unsolvable.

So I haven’t decided yet. I might possibly stop combing, tolerate the sticky grease, endure the unwanted clothing lint, and see what happens. The grease makes my hair stay wet for a long time, which will make me freeze in the wintertime. That’s the nice thing about combing – it helps the hair dry. So I have a feeling that with greasy dreadlocks, I am going to get wet hair that stays wet for four hours at a time or something. I guess I’ll find out…

What can you do if you are being attacked by electronic weapons?

February 11, 2009

This isn’t a complete list – it’s only the beginning of a work in progress. So far I have four main categories: Psychological/Spiritual, Health, Logical, and Technical/Tactical. Technical/tactical countermeasures are my weakest area: I know almost nothing useful there, yet that is some of the most important and most badly needed information.

PSYCHOLOGICAL/SPIRITUAL
1. endure
2. wait – attacks can change gradually over months and years, and become less severe or less direct over time. sometimes “new people” seem to take over, and after they’ve gotten used to you, they are less abusive/hurtful than they were in the beginning
3. have something to hope for in the future
4. don’t panic
5. talk about it to a close friend or write it online
6. let feelings, sensations, and emotions flow through your body, recognize that they are NOT your own, recognize that the feelings are being triggered by the attacks, accept that it is okay to feel angry/hurt/frustrated/enraged/violated, etc. It helps me to assume “During an attack, all emotions are fake.” The feeling of Rage is often triggered artificially during an attack, when actually, the “real you” could just sit there silently feeling nothing at all. For me, Rage is always fake.
7. “Emotional Freedom Techniques” / “Thought Field Therapy”: these techniques are similar to accupressure and you can read about them on the net. While being attacked, you can calm and soothe yourself, even though the attacks will continue. You tap and press on various parts of the torso, hands, and face, and it can greatly help you relax and focus.

HEALTH
1. observe how drugs affect the attacks and your experience of them. You might still need to use drugs, but just be mentally prepared for the results that you know will happen. When I’ve used my herbal antidepressant recently and I’m withdrawing from it, I notice a lot of “zinging” in my head, which usually isn’t as noticeable. They do it in a sort of Morse Code pattern, with rhythmic, numeric taps. When I used Prozac for two weeks (it was horrible, and I won’t touch Prozac with a ten-foot-pole ever again!) it made me hear voices EVEN MORE CLEARLY, with *perfect* audio quality! (And psychiatric drugs are supposed to “help” you?) My salvation, most of the time, is that I just can’t HEAR what they’re saying, because the audio quality is so bad. When I can hear them clearly, I’m able to be offended and disgusted by what they say. Usually it’s more like a staticky crackle.
2. improve whatever you have direct control over: diet, drugs, walking outdoors, fresh air
3. avoid PRESCRIPTION drugs at all costs, if you can. Many of these drugs actually trigger people to commit suicide or homicide. They give you such an unbearable, intolerable feeling of discomfort that you can’t bear to exist. Prescription psychiatric drugs *CAUSE PEOPLE TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND HOMICIDE.* If you use any drugs at all, use only a microdosage, a tiny fragment of the pill, not the whole thing. This also applies to herbal and alternative medicines.
4. Feingold Diet. I was born in the 1970s when the Feingold Diet was first popular, and my parents put me on the diet when I was a toddler – it made a huge difference immediately. You can become hyperactive, restless, and attention-deficit by eating foods that most people consider healthy, like fruits and vegetables, wheat, and milk. The Feingold Diet helps you observe which foods trigger hyperactivity for you. *Wheat* can cause people to behave in the way that is diagnosed as “Schizophrenia,” which usually means that somebody has trouble thinking clearly and trouble communicating clearly. This ISN’T necessarily the result of psychotronic attacks, but instead, it’s caused by foods. Psychotronic attacks are still real, and they still will cause confusion and other problems, but foods and drugs can do that too. Foods can explain why you’re in a bad mood, anxious, or irritable all the time.

LOGICAL
1. innocent until proven guilty: always assume that you don’t know for certain who’s doing it. Why? because lying, framing people, and misleading someone to attack an innocent person are the center of their whole approach. If they convince you that some particular person is guilty, they could be lying and using you as a tool, and you could be accusing an innocent person or damaging that person’s reputation wrongly. Do not retaliate.
2. assume people are puppets. assume they do not consciously intend to attack you. Instead of believing that “everybody’s in on it,” remember instead that “they” can make ordinary, innocent people “get an impulse” to say something, or do something, which harasses you or has a special symbolic meaning that only you can understand. They’ll make innocent people seem like they “know” things about you, when actually that person doesn’t know or understand anything about it at all. Gang stalking is real, but sometimes, it only LOOKS like a gang, when it’s actually a bunch of innocent puppets who don’t even know they’re being controlled and forced to say or do harassing things to you.
3. observe and record incidents, if it helps you feel better to do this
4. distinguish random accidents from attacks. Random coincidences do still happen. Sometimes events are staged, sometimes the coincidences were made to happen by the attackers, but other times, things really do happen at random. (They don’t control EVERYTHING! This is a reassuring thought.)

TECHNICAL/TACTICAL (this is where I have the LEAST useful information!)
1. drive off in your car
2. visit relatives and friends. When my attacks first began, I drove to visit my family in another state, several hundred miles away. The attacks completely stopped for the first two nights, and I slept peacefully. Then it began again on the third night after an unusual vehicle was driving around in the neighborhood. (“Unusual” means: somebody was screaming at the top of their lungs, out the window of the car, late at night, over and over again.)
3. metal objects and furniture may help. On some web page (I forget where) a guy described using metal file cabinets around his bed.
4. try visiting a cave
5. binaural beats on headphones can be downloaded from the internet (but when I used them, the high pitches made my ears ring, so I wore earplugs and listened through the earplugs) – these can affect or control your mental focus or relaxation while you try to do some tasks and activities
6. reduce the level of non-directed, unintentional, ambient electromagnetic and radio noise. You can go to a place with fewer radio stations and fewer cell phone towers. You can also build a low-tech junk shield made of ordinary aluminum foil taped over a cardboard box – it WON’T block the attacks! and of course you will feel ridiculous, but it will reduce the background radiation, and you can test a cell phone and see that the cell phone won’t work behind the shield. This ambient radiation is somehow connected to certain types of attacks and surveillance – I hear more voices whenever I approach radio and cell towers.
7. videotape your house or apartment. I used to have a videotape running in my apartment at all times. I sold it back to the guy I bought it from, but now I wish I had it again. It was very reassuring. This will help you watch yourself and see if you do anything strange while sleeping – you can record the exact minute when somebody zapped you awake, for instance, by looking at the videotape and seeing when you moved. I used a VCR with time-lapse setting so that it recorded more slowly and didn’t use as much tape. Hook it up to an uninterruptible power supply (UPS) if you want.

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Again, this list isn’t done yet. I haven’t been able to focus on this problem very much because for a while now I’ve been dealing with health problems that were more of an emergency. For me personally, the psychotronic attacks are *mild* compared to some people’s, and I am nowhere near the level of torture, abuse, and life-threatening attacks and physical injuries that other people experience.

horizon picture

February 11, 2009

Lately I’ve been learning how to write HTML and how to do simple things, like customize the picture above this blog. I used Jasc Paint Shop Pro to crop part of a photo that I took. I may change it later. I just wanted something pleasant and comforting to be up there. (I bought Paint Shop Pro years and years ago, back in the days when I could afford to just go out and buy software.) I used “progressive encoding,” which makes the picture load as a bunch of blurry blocks instead of loading from the top down – just to be different, I guess. And I compressed it a lot, because I use dialup, so I want to make my pages dialup-friendly, so it should be a pretty small file.

Bleach and ammonia fumes???

February 3, 2009

Yes, I wrote about it on my other blog, but not here.

1. I had the Norovirus repeatedly for two weeks.

2. I had mild appendicitis, which got bad enough that I almost called the doctor, but right then, it started going away.

3. An unknown fume was in the area of the bathroom and I think that some window cleaner got sprayed on an area that might have had leftover bleach sprayed on it, the shower curtain.  The fumes were so toxic I could not stay indoors for several days.  That was all on my other blog.

How my employer can save thousands of dollars on soup; and, Antacids and stomach ulcers

February 3, 2009

I was going to put this on my regular blog. But as the writing went on, I became more and more grouchy and irritable – probably because I’ve had hardly anything to eat today, and was somewhat sick last night. So it was too hostile and angry to put it on my regular blog, if I didn’t intend to be in open conflict against my employers.

I cut back my work hours to three days a week because of how sick I’ve been. I was planning to do that anyway, and was planning to get a second job, and work both jobs for three days, then have four days off. Now, it turns out that they cut my hours even more than I had wanted. So I have only one day of work next week.

Oddly enough, my response is to look on the bright side of this, and ask ‘What will I do with all my free time?’ There are dozens of urgent problems that I need to deal with, like the toxic house (which has improved, by the way, but I’ll write about it later). So actually I am kind of glad to have extra free time. My money is going to run out very quickly and I am going to have to ask my parents to help. I would not have done this except that I really have been in a barely-livable situation for so long now. This was a life-or-death situation and I literally was almost passing out and fainting from the fumes in the house. I think it was bleach and ammonia.

Well, anyway, even as I’m glad to have some extra free time to deal with my emergencies, I am also ‘disgruntled’ about a lot of things at work, but I haven’t been writing about them on this blog. But it seems safe enough to talk about the soup waste problem and how easy it would be to solve that problem. I can then tell myself that I’m a valuable, but unappreciated, employee with good ideas, even though I’ve been so sick that I could only move slowly and didn’t feel like I could do as much work as I was supposed to.

So, what is the problem with soup?

We have three pots of soup at the salad bar every day. Behind the salad bar, there are usually three extra pots of backup soup warmed up, in case anything runs out. So we usually have six pots of soup warmed up at all times.

Backup soups are heated up ahead of time, because it’s a large pot of soup, and it takes two hours to warm up. So you can’t just quickly microwave a pot of soup in an emergency if it runs out. It has to be set up for at least two hours ahead of time. And you don’t know for sure if anything will get used up or not. You just have to guess.

It all seems pretty straightforward so far.

But here is what happens. When soup, or any foods at all, are kept on heat for a long time, they deteriorate. The chemicals change. Oxidation of fats, denaturing of proteins, destruction of vitamins, and other chemical processes happen, and I’m not a chemist, so I don’t know much of the details. But a lot of things change when a food is kept at high heat for hours upon hours upon hours.

Eventually, the quality of the food gets pretty bad. I know how it is: if you eat food that’s been on heat for a very long time, it’s so bad you can hardly swallow it. And it upsets your stomach, and causes reflux, and tries to come back up. If you have a sensitive stomach, like I do, it makes you feel like you’re going to throw up.

I’ve had other customers complain about stomach problems after eating the hot foods, not just me alone. (The complaint was about the fried products, not the soup.) It isn’t all that rare. But people hardly ever know what causes this problem, and instead of solving the problem (by switching to high-quality foods that aren’t on heat all day long, but instead are freshly made new) they will go buy antacids and other over-the-counter drugs to fix the problem with their stomachs. And they tell stories of going to their doctor for recurring stomach problems and reflux, and their doctors never know what’s causing it. They then prescribe (or give samples of) drugs like Prevacid. I know, because I have been there – in 1999 when I was sick, I was actually still going to doctors and hoping they could tell me something.

I am totally opposed to using antacids. I never, ever, ever use them. I also never use that pink liquid that I can’t remember the name of.

One time, while working on a temp job, I mentioned to the lady beside me that my stomach was refluxing and I felt sick after eating. She gave me an antacid. I accepted it.

Shortly after taking the antacid, I felt as though a hole was burning in my stomach. I felt like I was getting an ulcer. This was worse than the original problem! The ‘ulcer’ lasted several days after taking only one antacid. I never took them again. And I never have any symptoms of ulcers. (The only other time I developed stomach ulcers was when I was selling blood plasma. They reassured everyone that donating plasma is totally harmless and safe, but I almost passed out several times after doing it, even though I was eating and drinking, and I developed stomach ulcers, which quickly healed by themselves after I stopped selling plasma. Plasma might have something to do with the immune system protecting you against stomach ulcers, but I don’t know the details.)

Ulcers are caused by bacteria growing in the stomach, called helicobacter pylori. My theory is: when you use an antacid, you are shooting yourself in the foot – you get rid of stomach acid, which is your ONLY NATURAL DEFENSE against the growth of bacteria in the walls of the stomach! Stomach acid is good for you. It kills bacteria. When you get rid of acid, the bacteria are now safe and can grow easily without being destroyed. They then create ulcers.

Antacids cause ulcers. Don’t use them. I’m pretty sure of it, especially after hearing stories about people who have ulcers and who use hundreds of antacids every day while they try to cope with the ulcers. It looks like they’re making things worse, not better.

The point is that bad quality food can cause people to go to the doctor trying to solve the problem, or else they go buy over-the-counter drugs that make the problem even worse. To solve the problem, you only need to eat fresh foods. Avoid foods that are heated for a very long time, and avoid foods that are fried in old oxidized vegetable oils. Oxidized vegetable oils will give you ‘charlie horses,’ or severe leg muscle cramps that happen when you stretch or just move the wrong way, usually when you wake up in the morning. My nutrition teacher told us that, and I’ve observed it many times myself, from eating french fries at fast food places, but I can’t find scientific papers talking about it and I don’t know the technical words to describe this phenomenon. (‘Charlie horse’ isn’t a scientific phrase that will help google take you to technical research papers.)

So I pay attention to bad quality food that’s been heated for too long or reheated too many times.

But our soup isn’t THAT bad. I’ve eaten it sometimes.

But here’s the other problem:

After the soup has been heated for one day, we put it into the cooler and keep it. We are allowed to reheat the soup once. Then it has to be thrown away, after it’s been reheated that one time. This is legitimate, because of everything that I said just now about the quality getting bad if it’s heated too many times or too long.

So here is what happens.

The morning people heat up three freshly opened soups. After two hours, they put them on the salad bar, ready to serve. Then, they usually open three brand new freshly opened soups, and heat them for backup. This is typical.

They don’t write anything about which soups are new, and which ones are reheats. I have no way of knowing this. It’s supposed to be put in a book, and they make a big deal of writing the temperatures and all that, but they aren’t following the instructions on the soup page. You are supposed to write an ‘R’ for reheat, and ‘N’ for new, and they totally ignore that. Meanwhile, I’m the one who puts them away at the end of the day, not knowing which ones need to be thrown out and which ones kept. But that’s not the main part of the problem.

We hardly ever use much soup at all. Most of the time, the backups aren’t needed. The soups on the bar will get a little bit taken out of them, almost nothing. At the end of the day, those soups are now tomorrow’s reheats. So are all the backups. All six pots of soup are now ‘reheats’ instead of ‘new.’

Tomorrow, all six soups will be thrown in the garbage after being reheated all day. Hardly anything will have been taken out of most of them. Only a few spoonfuls, most of the time. Some days are more busy. But it hardly ever runs out and you hardly ever need to go get out one of the backups.

Also, you don’t just throw away reheats at the end of their second day. I am also required to throw away all soups that are LESS THAN HALF FULL, whether they are new or old! If a significant amount of soup has been taken out of the pot, I am supposed to dump it and weigh it, because it ‘can’t be put out that way,’ half-full like that, because it doesn’t look nice, and it’s inconvenient, since you feel uncertain and insecure about whether maybe it will get used up, and you’d rather have it be low-maintenance and just not have to worry about it – you want to say it’s full, it’ll still be full hours from now.

Throwing away all six huge pots of soup: I have to dump them into a plastic container and weigh it to find out the cost of soup lost. This is always interesting. It’ll often be, like, twenty or thirty pounds of soup. Over a week or so, we throw out hundreds of dollars worth of soup. Over a month or two, it’s thousands of dollars.

This is not some trivial penny-pinching. This is THOUSANDS of dollars that can be drastically reduced instantly by doing a couple of small things differently. (In an irritable and disgruntled mood, I would call all of them morons and say they need to just use their brain cells once in a while.)

Here is how it should be done.

Day 1:

~Heat three fresh soups. Put on bar.
~Heat three backups if you feel like it. I wouldn’t, but they insist. They won’t get used, I know that.
~End of day: DON’T, I REPEAT, DON’T THROW AWAY any half-full soups!!! Keep them. They are tomorrow’s BACKUPS.

Day 2:
~Put the FULLEST pots of soup on the bar (after warming them up of course). They are reheats. You are LIKELY to have at least three untouched pots of soup, because the backups are ALMOST NEVER used at all. If you ever used a backup the day before, it will only have one or two ladlefuls taken out.
~Put the EMPTIEST pots of reheated soup on BACKUP. These may be less than half full. These are the ones that ‘can’t be put out that way.’ Normally, we’d have thrown them in the garbage, even if they were new that day, merely because they were no longer half full. So far, all of the soups warming up are yesterday’s reheats. Nothing has been thrown away, unless you had a pot of soup so empty that you were practically scraping the bottom. I am telling you, they make you throw it away even if it is 1/3 full and there are still several pounds of perfectly good soup in the bottom. It is unthinkable to me, but this is what they do!
~It is very unlikely that any backup soups will even be put out on the bar. But if one of those on the bar does run out, you can put out a half-empty one, one of the 1/3 fulls that normally would be thrown in the garbage. You use those backups only if the ones on the bar are really scraping the bottom and can’t get much out with the ladle.

Day 3:
~By now, some of the soups will have been mostly used up, and reheats are being thrown out. All six original soups are now second-day reheats and will all have to be thrown out.
~If you opened anything fresh on Day 2, put the freshest and fullest ones OUT ON THE BAR.
~Put the half-empty, or 1/3 fulls, or the REHEATS, on BACKUP. This includes anything which was ‘new’ yesterday, but half-full, and ones that ‘you can’t put it out there half full.’
~DON’T USE ‘FIRST IN FIRST OUT!!!’ First in first out means that you’ll always be putting the lowest quality soups on the bar. Those are the reheats, first in, first out. Yesterday’s half-ruined, bad-quality reheats will always end up on the bar. Don’t do that. Keep the worst stuff on backup and avoid using it. Put freshest and fullest on the bar. Instead of ‘first in, first out,’ use the ‘assume yesterday’s reheats will probably get thrown in the garbage, and open as few new bags of soup as possible.’ The goal is to always use the newest stuff on the bar, the oldest bad-quality stuff on backup, with half-full ones on backup also, regardless of ‘first in first out.’

Argh, this is hard to explain. Yes, I’m not focused enough mentally to explain. The key concept is: DO NOT USE ‘FIRST IN, FIRST OUT’ ordering. Instead, always get the freshest stuff out on the bar, and the worst old half-full stuff on backup. Keep half-fulls and third-fulls on backup, and assume they’ll never get used if the ones on the bar are full to the top. Don’t even worry about whether they ‘can’t be put out 1/3 full.’ You won’t put them out, you’ll put them on BACKUP.

I need to eat something. Maybe that’s why I’m obsessing about food, while being too disorganized to explain myself clearly.

this is going to end up on retmeishka instead of my regular blog… it’s too ‘disgruntled and disorganized.’

I need to explain what it is that THEY do, and how it leads to thousands of dollars of wasted soup. I can tell that this is too disorganized to convince anyone. It needs to be described in step-by-step order, with both the ‘good’ method and the ‘bad’ method side by side to show what exactly is going on. I can only insist that I *KNOW* their way of doing it is totally idiotic and costing them THOUSANDS of dollars of soup being thrown out unnecessarily.

I’ll write down the ‘rules’ for how to handle the soup. Then I’ll write down my ‘new rules’ in contrast. (For instance, my rule says: DO NOT USE FIRST IN FIRST OUT.)